Banana's

That about sums it up. I feel like I'm going banana's! This post is going to be kinda personal so please bare with me if I go into my rambling mode. So, I suffer from bi-polar depression and I also have anxiety issues. Fun fun! Over the past month or so things have started to get progressively worse. My doctor keeps messing with meds to try and find something that will work for me, so far no dice. So, my moods been on the foul side lately. I just don't want to be bothered.....with anything. I have absolutely no energy everything and everyone feels like they're riding on my last words. And the cherry on the top is I have people telling me it's all in my head. Yup, sure is. All in my head because I don't get to sleep until almost 5 in the morning and then I don't wake up until like 2 or 3 in the afternoon and I really don't even wanna get up then. I don't feel like doing a thing, my school work hasn't suffered so far. Thank goodness for that, that's the one thing I have to keep my mind busy with so I don't sit here and pick out every thought in my brain and drive myself crazy with it. It gets so tiresome having to deal with this day after day. And I've been having weird dreams. I lost my mom in 2007 to cancer, I took care of her non stop for 2 years and here lately I've been dreaming of her. It's never when she wasn't sick, it's always when she was. I don't know why that is. But everytime I dream of here I wake up with this like eerie haunted feeling. It's scary.
Too bad I don't have any lighter and brighter news. The only good thing that has happened this week is that it hasn't snowed. Although, it's supposed to snow tonight and tomorrow, I think I jinxed myself. I'll be so glad when summer gets here. I'm ready to put the top down on the car and go cruising. I think that's one of my favorite things in the world, driving down the highway on a hot summer's day, top down and radio blasting, and just drive. Oh and I saw the greatest thing in the world today. Robert Pattinson, who plays Edward in the Twilight movies, has a new movie coming out. It's called "Remember Me." Omigoodness, it looks so good. And he looks just heavenly in it. I think it comes out like the second week of March, but I can hardly wait. And the new Alice in Wonderland comes out on March 5th. I can't wait for that one either, Johnny Depp is going to be awesome as the Mad Hatter. I love Johnny Depp he's the only actor who could make a complete and utter villain lovable. The first time I saw Public Enemies, I was like "swooon." No one could have played John Dillinger better, no one! I think about how cool it must have been to live in a time period like the 20's and what it must have been like for his love, Billie to be wrapped up in that kind of lifestyle. It was so glamorous. Well, it may not have been but the movie made it look that way, lol. Anyhoo, I'm off to walk the dog. Stay tuned for the next episode.............

"Oh, the weather outside is frightful!"

Yep, you guessed it, it's snowing again! This time we really got dumped on, we got a half a foot today and it's still snowing. I love winter weather, being stuck in the house with nothing to do but homework, sounds wonderful huh? But hey, I finally finished my research paper, I did it on the Health Benefits of Owning a Pet. The irony was that as I writing it one of my cats was sitting right next to me looking at the laptop screen like he knew it was about him. He kept looking at me like "Uh huh, you better make me look good." I thought it was kinda cute.
So Nascar is back on! Whoohoo! They were at Daytona on Sunday, it was by far the longest Daytona 500 ever! They were having problems with a big chuck hole in the racing surface so they kept having to stop to cars to patch it. But the good news is Dale Jr came from 10th to 2nd on the last lap. So, that made me really happy. He had a really rocky year last year and I'm hoping this year will be better for him. The Colts didn't win the Superbowl so Dale Jr has to do something for me this year! This year can't be a total bust lol! Other than that really not too much going on. My cousin got let out of the big house last week after 6 years. He's just writing and talking to this chick as long as he's been in there now, 2 weeks after he gets out they're getting married next month. I don't think I'll be going to the wedding just because I think marriage is a sacred thing and knowing someone 2 weeks doesn't justify marriage. But hey, to each their own. If it makes ya happy, go for it I guess. I think I'm gonna wrap this up. Hope everyone's stayin warm!

Superbowl=Colts Loss

So, as you can see I'm pretty bummed about the Colts losing the Superbowl. I keep trying to make up excuses to pacify myself, like the refs were biased or it was because Peyton wasn't utilizing Reggie Wayne. Anyways, they lost so phooey on them! By the end of the 3rd quarter I had already taken of my Dwight Freeney jersey and chucked it at the television I was so mad!
So, we're like in the middle of another snow storm, we got about 4 inches last night and this evening it was snowing and the wind was blowing so bad that it was basically a white out condition. Needless to say I will not be out at all tonight because I refuse to drive in the snow. People lose all their common sense when we get a little bit of weather, trust me I know. Yield in Indiana means there's room for you too!
Nothing much too interesting going on around here lately. I just wanted to let my frustrations out about the Colts and the snow. I'll be so happy when summer finally arrives! Then I'll complain because it's so hot! lol. It's a no win situation sometimes. Ah well, ya can't have it all I guess!